It's been a while since I have last blogged. And as usual, lots of things have been happening in our world. But for me personally, I have been consumed by this pregnancy and all the complications that have come along so far.....
At 11 weeks, I started bleeding....lots! To the point that I thought for sure I was losing this child. I called Jake at work, and he came home and off we rushed to the hospital. I as you can imagine was an emotional wreck! While Jake on the other hand was as cool as a cucumber, reminding me that God's hand is on this child and that everything will be fine! He was right. After waiting 2 hours, we finally got to see a doctor and had a very quick ultrasound. Baby was kicking away and I was told to go home and see the doctor in a couple of days. (Not the response I was looking for, but seeing my baby kicking was enough for me at that point)
Two days later I am off to the doctor. They check me out and my cervix is still closed, so she puts the doppler on to hear the heartbeat (which had been picking up with no problems since 9 weeks along) After 10 minutes of trying, we had nothing. The doctor was asking me if I was sure the baby was moving on the ultrasound...I was sure....I was sent for another ultrasound and then given the "baby's terminate themselves when something genetically is not going right" speech....
I really did not need to hear that speech!!!! So off to the ultrasound we went, and baby's heart was beating away, and no cause for the bleeding could be determined. I was then put on 2 weeks of rest.
It's been a month now. I'm still on "rest". I really do try to do as little as possible, but with 2 kids at home I can't just sit on the couch eating bon bons all day long. Jake has been a huge help with keeping the house tidy and doing the majority of the kid duties when he's home. I have had to stop singing at church and have stepped down from overseeing the nursery. So life has suddenly started slowing down a bit. Seems though that as soon as I try to do too much, the bleeding starts again. So really I am doing the best I can to listen to my body and do whatever I need to to get this baby to term and out healthy!
That means no more lifting Sam (which he was not so happy about at first, but has discovered that holding my hand is just as good!) Faith is a great help. She seems to understand that "mommy's not feeling well" and will run and get things for me and put her and Sam's dishes away properly and help straighten up. She will even pull out clothes for the both of them, and does a pretty good job! She has yet to select a clashing outfit! She has grown up a lot this last month!
So yeah, this last month has been challenging for me. I'm just trying to get through this season the best I can and am praying that we can get some answers soon as to why this is happening. Really, hearing "we don't know why, some people just bleed" is getting a bit old, and I really am hoping my next ultrasound will show something!
